The die has been cast. The decision has been made. I have stepped over the line. I won’t look back, let go, slow down, back away or be still. My past is redeemed. My present makes sense. My future is secure. I am finished with low living, sight walking, small planning, smooth knees, colorless dreams, tamed visions, mundane talking, cheap giving, and dwarfed goals.
I no longer need preeminence, position, promotion, or popularity. I don’t have to be right, first, tops, recognized, praised, regarded, or rewarded. I now live by faith. I lean on His presence. I love with patience. I live by prayer. I labor with power.
My face is set. My gait is fast. My goal is heaven. My road is narrow. My way is rough. My companions are few. My guide is reliable, and my mission clear.
Cannot be bought, compromised, detoured, lured away, turned back, deluded, or delayed. I will not flinch in the face of sacrifice, hesitate in the presence of adversity, negotiate at the table of the enemy, ponder at the pool of popularity or meander in the maze of mediocrity.
I am a child of God. I won’t give up, shut up, let up, or slow up until I have stayed up, stored up, prayed up, paid up, and spoken up for the cause of Christ.
I must go until He comes, give until I drop, preach until all know, and work until He stops me. And when Jesus comes for His own, He will have no problem recognizing me, for my banner is clear. I am a Child of God.
Writing of a young African Pastor prior to his martyrdom
Yolanda Conley Shields April 2010